As everything goes underneath me 

As deep breathes  go nowhere to save me 

Anxiety is my bestie 

And I eat panic attacks for a snack 

I feel attacked 

I live with fear 

I live with a pain in my chest 

Short breathes are a close neighbor to mine 

I don't know how to deal with this 

I'm brand new to this 

I can feel it with it's cold fingertips 

My chest has freezer burns on my collarbones 

But I lie and say that I'm okay 

That bruises will stay and I 

I will find a safe place to stay 

For the deep breathes to calm me down when the attacks go unheard when I'm laying underground he clenched my throats so hard his hands left trace marks 

I can't breathe 

When I kiss him the emptiness still lingers around 

I'm on the ground on cold cement at midnight wondering if you'll get around to find me 

My anxiety is no less then apart of me 

I have darkness that clenches me when it's has the need to 

My personality is bright I'm bubbly 

I'm also toxic and empty 

Someone give me a prize for being confusing