Broken Blueprint

Trapped cant find my way out, lost need a new path, but I don't know how to reroute . Stuck in the middle of closing in walls, scared of heights, but I seem to always want to fall. Took a detour and I can't figure out why, thought I had it all figured out, secrets tell me lies. Crashing as I fall to the bottom, unevenly broken are the pieces to a puzzle. Don't know how this happened, thought I could see into my future. Knew where I was going and where I wanted to be, now I can't figure out if I was living in reality or if it was all just a dream. I wished for the imaginable happiness , perfect in my eyes, but in the end I ended up not knowing why. I was so lost and unable to tell what I wanted to pursue if I was going to succeed or become someone I never knew. Broken blueprints not knowing my path, lost like a needle in a haystack. Can't find my way out, trust no one on my journey to reroute. Because these secrets tell me lies, and I can't tell if I'm dreaming or if this is reality. Lost and still can't figure out why.