Broken silence

"broken silence" Elizabeth JM Perreault Elizabeth Evangeline 

Evangeliumvitaecartede@gmail

 Feb 11,2021

 

I was so broken and alone

Nieve to fall for the love you have shown

I wish I never met you that day

All that you have caused me is constant pain

I wish I never became your shoulder to cry on

You became my best friend then my lover

In such a short time

I can't change the past, but I know I can't

Allow it to last in my head , like a repeating video I just would love to burn in the trash

I let you into my heart, my mind and trusted

That you would be my light, my knight in shining armor,

I felt so safe, so loved, I actually fell in love 

With you the first time in the living room

You were so confident and unafraid to go for and grab what you wanted, me, and I fell hard

 

I sit here 2 years later, still with thought of you in my head, that I can't  seem to shake

No matter what I do I can't fake it anymore

Realizing all of the masks you wore during the eleven years we were together, you asked me to be your wife, on bended knee in the shower that night, I loved you so dearly , I nearly felt.!y heart jump, but I said yes, thinking it was the best for me and my kids,

My love for you blinded me from the truth

Of you and who you truly were as a man

 

I can't change the past,

No matter how many times I've asked

I can't take away the pain you've cause me

That will not last, I've tried,

I've never met someone like you, (hidden)

We said we wanted a different future than this one, to walk away from all the rats,

To grow old together, and as a family, that's what you promised me, 

But that was Bullshit, wasn't it my cakes,

Was that man really you, or was he fake?

 

There are so many questions to ask

Too many that I know I WILK never get past

But I won't allow you to have that control over me like you think you have,

You bounce from place to place, Get locked up

For stupid shit, that was what separated us from one another, broke up our marriage and destroyed all we had built together, 

Is this a game for you?

Alk I can remember the most is when we both said I do, and that day at the bus stop under cover in the pouring rain, when we stared intoQ each others eyes and said "I love you" at the same time, that I WILK never forget, 

 

Through the good and the bad, that we have had, I can't say I don't love you , even if its a small amount, the emotional pain, when you kept off and on again to.fulfill your habit to get high again, we were soul mates, but we are also toxic for each other, I kept giving and giving .you all of me, bit in the process I was ignoring what was more important you see, my children are my life, my air, you are just a visitor, who is not welcome here anymore,