BullShit.

WIll this ever stop. 

The aching in my soul of loniliness 

and Heartache.

The yearning of wanting to not be alone

and the fear of people

all at once. 

I can not bare the thought of relationship.

I want the end this vicious cycle

That is family.

The yelling and screaming and hurtfulness.

The backstabbing and cheating.

there is no point.

Why go through all the hurt and heartahce that is love.

The friendship is strained and lost over time.

Marriage is a sham.

Freidnships are fake.

Alone is how we are all born and how we will all die.

No one really cares. 

They only care about themselves.

THat is the world.

People never just SHUT UP.

Stop talking.

No one has to fill the air with bullshit that doesnt matter.

You say all you want is for people to be quiet 

But all you fucking do is talk. 

JUST SHUT UP.

Alone is going to be the destiny of me. 

I can no longer handle any relationships.

THey all end.

THEY ALL END.

They wont matter at the end of the day. 

WHat matters is how you spend your time and fi your happy doing it.

But no one ever cares.

Siblings are liars and parents are brainwashers.

They vbrainwash you into clones of themselves good or bad.

Thats why yu break the cycle.

Dont get maarried.

DPnt have children.

You will ruin them 

just like how your parents ruined you.

I push people away.

They leave because i dont know 

How yo act in any relationship.

I dont know how to love.

I dont know how to care.

All simply because you have to care and love yourself

before you try and love another person.

and i will never know how to doo that.

That is why i will be alone for the rest of my life.

because thats all i have ever been.

Alone.