Butterfly Boy

When I saw you, for the very first time.

I knew what I thought.

My heart sang like the prettiest wind chime.

My brain knew the pain that was bound to be brought.

But still, I felt the way I felt.

And still, I knew what you were.

You came close to where I knelt.

Softly, swiftly. I felt my stomach stir.

You were one of those boys.

A butterfly boy.

I was just to be one of your toys.

Simply a toy.

Impossible to catch,

No matter how long you spend chasing.

Like standing in the rain lighting a match.

But I'm already gone, heart racing.

I fell before I even knew.

You played your game,

and now you're through.

I tried to ready myself, but it hurts just the same.

Now I'm sitting here.

All alone in the dark.

Living my biggest fear.

Wishing I had that spark.

Wishing I knew what to do,

Just to make you stay.

Wishing it didn't hurt to think of you,

because the thoughts come every day.

I wonder if you ever think of me,

I wonder if you ever miss me.

Your emotions were never there to see.

We could never be.

I always cared to much,

whereas you never cared at all.

But I have this hunch,

it's because you're scared to fall.

Do you remember when we laughed,

and we just couldn't quit?

I wish that would've been a rough draft,

and I could go back and fix it.

I wish I could stop these tears,

and you would just stay.

I wish you could wipe away my fears,

and just find a way.

Sweet Butterfly boy,

I wish you wouldn't fly away.

I know