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I want to be able to press pause I want to make it all stop, only for a little while I want to sleep for ten days, I want to get sick of my bed, I want to bury myself in blankets Instead of dirt. I wanna be able to press play To start living again, To start felling again, To do stuff, To get to places, To get to people, To live again. But it all has been taken away from me, Why did I play pause in the first place? That's right, I did it, Then why do I keep on wanting to press pause again? I am avoiding the stop button, Whatever it takes I have to avoid the stop button, The one who never lets me play again. I did play pause, I did stop it all but I can't let it stop, I have to hold it, Don't let go, keep holding Even if your hands burn and are torn appart Keep holding Even if your brain is on fire Keep holding, Pause hurts me Stop hurts others Rewind makes me cry and smile, but it's always greener Fast forward is unachievable And play... I want to press play I want to want to press play. Do I really want to? Or will I just be suffering when life is playing And also whenever I have to pause again? It's just a matter of time Before I throw this tape away.