Cant stop

I don't know what to do I look at you and see you. The boy who used to fill me with the joy of happiness of everyday. The boy who could make any bad day good just with one touch. The boy who said he cared. The boy who would call to see if I was alright. The boy who stayed on the phone with me and told me not to cry. The next day you gave me a huge hug and told me its alright. You acted like you were going to protect me from things I couldn't protect myself from. And yet when I tell you a guy slapped my ass and I start to walk and look back at you... you just give me a glance and smile. You did nothing. I thought you were my superman and I thought you'd be there for me. I told you every time he has done it yet you still do nothing and when I am crying and you wont answer my texts... it doesn't matter now for what caused this whole mess is you say that guy threatening you but yet you cant open your eyes and see... when I sent that text of hi hey you blew.... you cant see that you blowing up and acting as if there was nothing there and nothing wrong you did nothing wrong... but yet you did do something wrong and cant see your own mistake... we still would be the same if you would've not blown or if I would have never hit send but yet you go home and tell your family this. How a 8th grade guy comes and tells you to back off of me if you are planning on hurting me. Yet I am the one being hated on not him but me. I tell you. I did nothing. And you agree but that doesn't change the fact that we us could have been meant to be... I told you hey I am here if you need to talk okay. I told you that almost everyday whether it be happy or sad or just out of curiosity or boredom I am here to talk. Anytime anywhere okay... but yet when you blew up on me your explanation to my best friend was... Yeah she got sad and I blew up on her because of stress...and you see this all could have been avoided if you would've came to me and told me you didn't mean it and were sorry. Yet you still haven't done it. And now I am ripping and tearing pieces by piece and cant stop it I am ripping myself apart thinking I caused this and I cant change your mind but as you can see. You told me you liked me while I stood there and told you I like you too but really only one really did and its the one who still Loves you... I wish I could say it as much as I mean it but now if I say it you say I don't like you anymore... but that's not how it works you cant just stop loving a person and I should know otherwise I would've stopped Loving you a long time ago... You don't get a choice whether you love a person or not if you do you do you can't change that and if you don't you cant force yourself too... that is why I believe you have either been lying to me this whole time and never liked me but convinced yourself otherwise or you did and still haven't stopped... and as I already said I would've stopped loving you from the beginning if I could but I cant and I am not happy to say this but I am going to love you for a long time and until the day I stop I always believe in a second chance... but your clock is ticking and once I stop your not getting another chance... so here goes nothing I love you no matter the mistakes or fights we make and we can always bounce back but yet we cant....