Captive

Isaiah 41:10 

¹⁰ Don’t be afraid, for I am with you!
Don’t be frightened, for I am your God!
I strengthen you— yes, I help you—
yes, I uphold you with my saving right hand!

Captive

There you are again like a child in the park

You have been on my thoughts for a while

Why have you been so long searching in the dark?

Where do you really belong with that gentle smile?

You invade my aloneness like you own the place

You captured parts of me in my helplessness

As my simple nature meets itself face to face

You drive me even farther into norms of loneliness

Can one see innocence through polluted eyes?

Is one to touch purity with hands often defiled?

In self-imposed righteousness many seem to get by

And is not that the crashing fall of me once in a while?

Did it start with you or was this already in me?

You seem to be all Light as darkness holds me captive

Like a hurricane it battles the one I really ought to be

Sin does not travel in tiny ways but is really massive

Like a stranglehold bad thoughts keep me enslaved

Control I thought I had seem to have disappeared

Only Christ can help and only Christ will save

From what seems to get a hold of me I have always feared