Carry Me

Each step another accomplishment, just one step closer to my establishment. little by little it moves with me, grains flip and fall I see. thunk! I plop the weight of my heavy body down. I feel as if the quicksand will eat me, i might drown. the crashing of the waves on the beach, is a sound I cannot describe nor teach. it swallows me up and i let it take hold. i want so much to be numbed by the cold. i let it soothe me as it rocks back and forth, i love that it shows me what i'm really worth. an honest measurement of what i have become. the brutality of it leaves my heart pounding, a drum. it pounds hard and loud. i feel the sensation of being naked in a crowd. back down again to sit and cry. all i can say is "why?" feed me, please, give me knowledge. tell me things i cant learn in college. i'm listening, my ears and heart are open. tell me, please! don't leave it unspoken.