Caught in wave...

This is a story of a  girl caugh in a wave of depression, anger, loss, and hurt.

Humanity

“Once in a life time there are those times of distress, where we are crying out for all the pain. Howevers, its not like it could just end. We all yearn for someone to help us solve the problems of life. We need a teacher to solve the test of life.”

My mother is gone. My father is gone, mentally. I’m shocked, upset, scared. I don’t understand. I am shaking and crcying. I feel as if I can not breathe; I feel like I’m being held underwater out of breath by the one person I care most about. I open my eyes, I am in my room crying. I slow my breathing. I tell myself “ It’s going to be okay.” I continue to walk everyday like nothing has been wrong. I decide to start to play this game; that will not only harm me, but harm the people I love the most. I get it I’m greedy. GREEDY GREEDY GREEDY! These bruises on my neck and cuts on my wrist harm others more then they harm myself. Maybe they’ll understand… maybe. That beautiful butterfly you saw flying by is finally decaying and dying in a batch of acid. I’m done with the pain so I squash it, it’s dead. I’m done, I’m sorry but I’m done drowning in the pool of life. Sorry but I’m DONE.