Causing Destruction

All the pain I'm causing in life
The truth of it all cuts like a knife
I'm trying to make sense of this all
Maybe my life's nothing but a downfall
I made I promise I thought I could keep
I'm looking down ready to leap
I'm tearing this family apart
the reality of it all is breaking my heart
I don't what to do anymore
Maybe I should get up and just walk out the door
I'm the cause of this I know its true
I don't know what the right thing is to do
The screaming and fighting is to much to bear
What's the point no one thinks I really care
I slowly falling inside my own head
Thinking the thought of I'm better off dead
I try to through and make it work
But the voices and thought still silently lurk
I know I'm not perfectly together
I don't know if I can handle all this pressure
I'm so sorry for all I've ever done
I want to just get up leave and run
How  much longer can I  hold on
Would all the disaster stop if I was just gone