Chains

The life giving organ enclosed in a bony tomb in the center of my breast pumps rapidly It tries to spread its feathery wings to fly away But it can’t The overpowering mistakes of my past have been interlocked into seemingly unbreakable links of steel They wrap unforgivingly around my heart and pull together harder and harder. Forever bound to suffer the excruciating rhythmic beats of wings ripping at thick chains Every time I see you I add a link to the chain But I’m masochistic so I keep looking And keep adding Every time our stares find each other I suffer this torment and struggle But I’m masochistic so I keep looking And keep adding and adding Every time that our lips and tongue work together to make words I ache to rip out this pounding vessel and hand it to you But I’m masochistic so I keep looking And keep adding and adding and adding… And the prison guard that is my mind keeps reminding me that I have been sentenced to a life chained And feel the urge to tear myself open and give you the piece of me that matters To want to fall for you……but not be able to