change once again

Sometimes what feels like is screaming and suffering actually is fake I bet you never knew that but it's best you know now that once you read a story once and try to change the ending by reading it again it's never going to happen it'll just stay the same. someone you'll cry and you'll want to stop and dry your face, but the tears keep coming down just like a waterfall, they can either be quiet and hide their tears or cry out loud wanting everyone stand ground and feel the pain and disgusting feeling that you have over your shoulders now. Your heart gets faster with every small pump not knowing it wants to shed as many tears as you are right now, but it just wants you to calm down. You'll try to make everything feel good you'll try to smile even is sad moments where your makeup gets ruined from all your silent tears or your hearts burns for more. Desperate tears, a racing heart, the work of pretending it's all going to soon pay off. It always takes time for someone to stop mourning for someone's absence, but I know that every tear that you've shed will be temporary and your heart will guide you to the right path in life where you'll find someone who knows you better.