Changes In Life

I can't explain my feelings

So I show it in writing.

I was depressed. 

Hear I tell you what inside my chest

I think my solution was not a success 

To end problems

And the devil said Go ahead,everybody wish you were death'

Ask God 'what's wrong'

Why always there's pain and hurt

Tell me, is this where I belong?

Then show me a way  out.

I'm dealing with the pain 

It's insane 

Can't take this shit out of my brain

you said you loved me,

you said you cared,

now you see me in public and act like I'm not there,

please god tell why is life so unfair,

I'm so stressed out,

I'm pulling out my hair,

I loved that look in your eyes,

when we talk,

took my emotional slap shot,

but you being the goalie you just blocked,

we could have made it all the way,

that's what i thought

I know you felt it too,

but in reality you liked another person too,

now she is the one holding you,

so what am i too do,

yeah i know am too late,

I just wish we could go on one more date,

considering you were supposed to be my fate,

Yeah all you can say is sorry,

Because all you put me through,

All i gave you was love and affection,

I always texted back too,

We we’re in this race together,

But somehow i was the one to lose,

You treated me like dirt but i still can’t get over you,

You See these teardrops falling from my eyes,

I’m all out of liquor so all i can do is cry,

Not sure if it’s good to fantasize to die,

I always spoke the truth you know i would never lie,

You always fucking called me,

When something was wrong,

Can’t help getting over you,

So all i can do is hit a bong,

Don’t know why that relationship didn't last long,

Cause i was loving and caring,

I truly apologize 

Please just look into my eyes

Do you see these tears I cry 

I know messed up bad this time 

I should start to socialize 

Not hide and wait till death arrives 

These people just demoralize

Me all they do is criticize 

The real me is in disguise 

Depression’s what I symbolize 

I’m not trying to dramatize 

I’m Just trying to speak my mind 

I’m terrified

I’m petrified 

All I wanna do is hide

I’m dead inside 

I really tried

They said everything will be alright

To say everything will be alright 

I hear from my mom and my dad 

that it’s time for a change 

And that have to face the facts 

That i have to play this game 

Some people think this is not a game

But in the end it’s played in that way 

I am sorry to say that I messed up again

But I just want to let you know that I am trying in the end