Changes Of The Mind

From age 6, she cried at night and She knew she wasn't the same. The kids at school reminded her Each and everyday she showed. Every time she walked those hallowed Halls, the voices echoed around her head. Each whisper and shout of ugly and fat. Of worthless, unwanted, and disappointing. And they wonder now, why she can't Look in the mirror and why she questions Every compliment, waiting for the backhanded Comment she's sure will come along. And she's been lied to and tricked So many times she's not sure what is Real and what's just another cruel trick To try and get her to let her heart go. So she wishes to make a change in the world In her own world. She wants to change the Image in the mirror, the image in her mind. She works to change what's inside her head. She can't change the past and the hurt, the vicious words that still haunt her, and the people Who, regardless of apologies, mean nothing But heart aching flashbacks and tears. But, she knows that if she sets her mind to it, she can change what she sees in the mirror. She can change the way that she feels about Herself, the way she looks, and her past. That's what I would change. I don't want to Take down a big bad wolf, try to fix the Problems that plague society. I want to change the thoughts I've never been able to escape. I want to change my own self image, and the Things that have set up camp and deposited Their own seeds of negativity in the back of My mind. Trying to tear me down over again.