changing seasons

A New Year,

Yet there’s no new me

Sunshine shines through

As bright as can be

Noting I’m halfway there

To the door, that I’m anxious to knock on

Which we call adulating

Time doesn’t stop for no one

Till I walked across the stage and became one

Complex emotions coursed through me

Accomplishment, some regret, but relief

Either way, I prayed for my safety

Because that upcoming month,

I was joining the navy

I was blinded by excitement

Ignoring my surroundings and mindset

Next thing I’m flying high

Losing my connection to the loved ones I left behind

The sorrow and sadness I felt disappeared

Because you can’t show weakness if the enemies near

Pushed to your max and if not,

You get kicked a few weeks back

I changed my ways from adult to woman

I didn’t know difference till I saw things others couldn’t

I learned how to go from I can’t to I can

And that you’re at the end day your only friend

Esp. when I had hold myself down

While my little cousins were getting put in the ground

Sorrow I felt that day

But I still couldn’t give those emotions away

I came home to be greeted by happiness

Instead I felt out of place

After a month of adjusting

 I had to get up and start picking up the pace

I worked to keep myself occupied

Then I realized there was something more

That instead of sitting here

I need to move forward and education I looked for once more

I was afraid and anxious of what to be

But I came out finding out who and what I need

My childish ways left me shedding like a snake

 Coming off at twelve o’clock exactly on New Year’s Day