The Chasm's Edge

I stood at the edge Thinking about the ledge. I knew how life could end With one step and I couldn’t amend. I thought of love and life long lost But I didn’t know what it would cost. If one wave of vertigo hit, I would die and someone would write an obit. I stood there thinking why I should die And I could think of a million reasons why. I broke the heart of a friend A friendship that I couldn't mend. To death's door she went After she knew where my true love was sent. I now stand where she stood, Knowing what she never would. I had loved her, more than she knew. I only wish that she knew me true And talked to me before she flew Where I cannot go. I wish she knew. I told a lie That I couldn't take back even if I try. And oh yes I wish I could, Bring her back and tell her I love her, yes I would. I stand here, though, Weighed down with woe. I thought of her and I Cursed myself for being so shy. I am beset by my own guilty thoughts, And my beleaguered stomach is tied into knots. I came here for some unknown reason. Possibly to forfeit my life, which feels like treason. For whatever goal I had, Either sane or mad, I have a decision to make. Now, which path shall I take? I look down into an abyss, And make one last wish. Then take one last breath, Before my impending death. I stood on that bleak bluff filled with dread, Thinking that I was as good as dead, But then I pictured her, And my broken heart began to stir. She wouldn't want me to end this way On any given day. I knew then that I must stay To help those who want to go another way. And to this day I will always say, There is an easier way. I won't stop you any day, Just listen to what I have to say. On that bleak winter day The bitter wind had to say, "It's not your day" "Take a step back and walk the other way" I choose to believe it was my love Telling me to leave like a mourning dove. She still loved me And I she.