Child heartbreak

Each day I fall further through a sink hole. Not knowing what's gonna happen next but I prepare for the worst. Imagine having your soul ripped from you but worse. This is another human beings heart being teared and cut from you without you having a say. Without them having a say. That last wave and kiss goodbye could be the last. There is no worst heartbroken then when with a child. Innocence at its purest confused of the harsh world outside. All they need is a helping hand but yet they ask for it and it gets taken away like it's nothing. They don't want just any hand but a knowing hand to guide them you take that away what do they have? There is nothing bigger than a mothers love and no one can ever take that away. That smile. Those eyes. Even the sassiness will be taken over nothing. Because the wave and kiss goodbye brings tears to eyes no matter what the cause. Theres no words to describe the tearing apart of the seams when child cries when you leave, imagine if it was for more than a day? I cant either.