Childhood
As a kid it hurt
Stumbing onto the hard pavement
Oh how clumsy was I
A scratch
A bruise
Let the pain set in
This is a walk in the park compared to what you're in for
Elementery school
Four eyes, yes I wear glasses
Fatty, yes I am overweight
Smelly, now I'm being targeted
Greasy, just stop
No one realizes the effects
Or everyone does and says nothing
Kids can be cruel they would say
Kids will be kids
But you sir have no excuse
For you are an adult and can damn well tell the difference
Middle school
Written all over the halls
STOP BULLYING
Who exactly is in charge?
Who has the responsibility to make it stop?
Well you're not doing a very good job
Let me tell you getting pushed into lockers stings
Getting teased over and over
Behind your back
Right in front of your face
The difference seems to fade when the bully's don't even give a shit anymore
High school
Emotions, emotions twirl in your head
What if they went away
Contemplating the worst
STOP
I feel nothing
I breathe nothing
I eat nothing
I sleep nothing
Now I can't be hurt
No more bullshit
The bully's move on
No more fun with no reaction
But wait I can't
I don't understand
Now I can't feel anything
What's the point
Numb
Numb is the only description I have found to describe me
Stuck in time
Time passes
Oh the sting
The sting comes back in a whole new light
I can't feel except for the sting
Now it's the sting of blade hitting skin
But the sting reminds me I'm alive
My wrists ache
My soul thrive
I want to be here
I want to be alive
As a kid it hurt
Stumbling onto the hard pavement
Oh how clumsy was I
A scratch
A bruise
Let the pain set in
Your alive little one
And one day you will come full circle