Chills through my Spirit

I feel chills through my spirit. Tears flowing down my face. I'm stuck in my mind trying to console my soul. I'm stuck in a balloon of clouds trying to find a pathway out of this pain that is slowing swallowing me whole. I cant stop thinking of you. It's crazy what your love did to me...it crept into every part of my body and planted seeds of togetherness, foreverness, but, those seeds never grew into what could've been... something magical between the two of us...loving eachother. The seeds never rooted to bloom. Because, the seeds were full of deceit, lies, jealousy, afraid and hurt. We met when are hearts wanted to love but, had been hurt by others for years not knowing how to free our spirits to forgive those who put us in a world of hurt. How do I stop my soul yearning for your soul? These chills I feel through my spirit are getting colder and colder. How do I warm my soul back up? From the chills you have given me? Which I seem to get when you're not here with me.