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Bleakness seeps through cracked drapes An ugly brown paired with an ugly life Each stitch a regret of moments to come Inhabiting your mind with vigor and cruelty Mutely, you lay between custard sheets Limbs tucked close against the curves of your breasts Chapped lips whisper intimate confessions Damning you eternally without anguish Oh how monotonous the day does appear Lavish with endless routine tasks Anchoring you to a world of confinement Heavy they pull further beneath the surface Deep blues arise from the ragged carpet (Recall, you must ensure it’s cleaned next week) Slowly, they surround you in a blanket of tranquility Encasing your limp body in frigid waters Now, darling are you finally able to sleep? For years of exhaustion have left you with insomnia Incurable it feeds upon once radiant intellect Endlessly attacking final hopes of normalcy Until you are left with nothing but chaotic sorrows Stagnant before, your constitution now shakes Violently it is thrown by overpowering waves They sweep overhead leaving you in ecstasy Just this once you are not in control (Or perhaps you are for the very first time) Let go. Let go. Let go. Let go. However it is difficult surrendering to recurring desires The water releases its calculated grasp Placing your shell above a pine-scented duvet Organized similar to that of a small package Dread spills into the immaculate room Stinging pale flesh with cuts above the heart Ironically placed where you think a soul would reside Another paradox in your inability to see light Legs move steadily away from comfort Upright now your feet brush the dry floor Time again to tend to a dying world Your duty as a woman to serve society Morning abandons shapeless homes Life is but one long bitter sentiment Forcing strained inhales and contracting lungs Willing you to live in the darkest of hours (Don’t fret my bird; we’ll meet again tomorrow) (And maybe even the day after that)