Clumsy

Trying to explained what I am going thought but no one seem to get it it's been 14 years and I still can't seem to pull thoughts it's like we never got it right no matter how hard we try and I waiting for a sign but deep down I know are love is a lost cause your to clumsy with my heart an tho I want to give you it all there something that tell me all get hurt an fall apart it's not just my life it's my little girls too so I not selfish and I don't fair well in games just to play it safe I play for keep not drop me when you want pick me back up for fun i may not be adored but it real it may not be perfect but at least he here willing to go thought the battle of life but I just want someone to hold I want some one to kiss me slow an till me I am beautiful I just one real love I want passion I want it all but what I got is loyalty an that shit means alot to me you say but your action prove you always ready to leave me in the must of it all an it suck because you still got my heart in it all you think you gave it back but you squeezing it and it just might burst your askin for it back an it's been there the whole time It never left your side maybe see it anymore because it's just a faint beat it's what you did to that heart you can't unsee and I finally see to scared to go near you to scared of the hurt you might cause and you think it's a joke but I not joking at all I been caught in your love an I may never escape an that's just the way it goes they say chose wisely I say what's a wise chose when either way it goes you get hurt I roll my dice an niagga you snake me I got them snake eye for life and all I trying do is be a better me all I'm trying do is let it all be cause you show me that you leave me with nothing but a broken heart what more important a girl with out her heart or a girl with at her home place to fell safe from the world and that don't bring me love but I love the felling of having a home and my heart hurts so what I really need it for you been heavy on my mind I don't think it will every let go you seem to have life fuiger out because you hold a heat full of love you put in your back pocket sat on it and you think it's gonna look the same as before with just a few words you want breath life in it then you got to come right not side ways I mean the right way I gave you key to the keys to the front so we you try come to the side that don't sit right