Cold Hearted

Sitting at home on a cold December night, Thinking of the person who I truly like. In a committed relationship but there's no hope at all, Constantly thinking could she be my downfall. Suddenly in love with a minor connection, Surrounded with thoughts and need a major suggestion. Through a dark history of agonizing pain, Constant rage and oncoming rain. The pain is like a knife and it cut deep, Still how can I think if my body is too weak? Hatred from my relatives, to thinking what my motives is. Made a promise that I'll always love her, Although our love can't go any further. No hope, no trust, no communication. Lies. That paints a perfect picture in disquise. Problems after problems they come nonstop, I'm going to be the same until my heart stop. Relatives trying to tell me what to do, Never the less they don't have a clue. Follow your heart was what I was told, How knowing that my heart is becoming cold? Left cold hearted with no trust, I have a need for a new love but what's the rush? I will make a promise that my new love will be my best friend, But for now I will give my life to God and follow his words till the end.