composure

because it’s more amazing watching someone fight back tears than watching them cry. because it’s more exhilarating trying to contain your laughter than laughing out loud. because it comes in clenched fists and tears that do not fall and muffled giggles and twitches of a smile and the sudden inability to make eye contact and the swallowing of anger and deep, calming breaths. because, even though you know it’s healthy to feel anything, you’re not sure if you’re ready to feel just yet.