I want to scream

But I stay silent

I want to run around without shoes

But my shoes stay on as I sit

And I stare at the frozen statue of a man

 

He is hanging there by iron nails

And there is blood pouring down his arms

But despite his pitied appearance

I want to scream

 

Tell him that my day is horrible

And that it’s all his fault

Because he’s supposed to be a merciful God

But I stay silent

 

The words claw at my throat

Trying to escape me

To form the feeling of feet on soft grass

I want to run around without shoes

 

But in the city there is broken glass

Trying to stab into your foot wherever you move

And running can be dangerously suspicious

So my shoes stay on as I sit

 

And the hole in my chest deepens and widens

It is trying to suffocate me

And no matter how much i try i can’t heal it

And i stare at the frozen statue of a man