Confused

You say I love you Are you true? I miss you so awfully You use to kiss me so softly We were a love story I could imagine us growing hoary We both fucked up Let take a close up You began to cut and lie I wanted to get high and fly At first we'd hit the bong And drink along Depression set in Our worlds began to spin You accuse me of cheating When in actuality your competing Competing with my drugs They are like slugs Killing me slowly In the mist i became unholy You lie and say never again You ingrained it in my brain You choose weed over me How could it be In actuality weed and alcohol is your love I feel like a mourning dove I feel lost I want to keep you at any cost But you and I have doubts Maybe we should take different routes Even though I'd rather be forever But its going to require endeavor Leaving is easier and quicker Its your choice now I give you endow Arrivederci my one true love