Confused

so confused, hurting not knowing what to do fellings for many ignoring everthing i know not knowing what to do hating life, not wanting to go on wishing it was all over fighting this world losing myself in the mist of the crowd seeing the change in my way of life looking back, wanting to go back not knowing what to do to stop day by day losing more and more the one girl i am, converted into a monster converting to a person of this world no longer the sweet loving nice girl looking back trying to stop crying screaming inside for help not able to trust anyone not able to scream, wanting to die to leave faking happiness, crying in sadness looking in the mirror seeing the thing i have became the monster who tramples others life hurting the ones i love the most dieing slowly from the inside holding on to life by a string so confused fighting to stay alive confused in love and hate wishing i could change the past.