Confusion

I hold myself hostage 
Stand behind my own 
written lines
The page is never blank
And vegance is what I 
must seek 
Against the lmits of my 
own being 
Myself is my own enemy 
Because I know how 
I tick 
And work and play and be 
So I take what is mine 
And what I know 
And damage it beyond 
Repair.
Misery is how I make myself
live my life
Despite what I may wish 
it is what I must do 
Even though I don't want to 
It is what I do. 
And is one of the reasons 
why I have so much to say 
and to write 
Because I am someone 
with no real story 
So I create my own.