Consequently I have now come

Consequently I have now come face to face

with the consequences of my actions

and Ironically

I knew things would go in this direction or tions

cause things have gone every way

but the way I wanted

my heart bleeds and my soul melts

from the realization that I gained everything that I wanted

but at what cost?

The rupture of my humanity now lost

or the equilibrium of my sanity now tossed

back and forth like the ups and downs of a seesaw

of life

too which now seems so far

in this moment

knowing that I am dead

the world seems so far

yet the universe so near

as if I milky way'd myself a million light years

up up and away

beyond the scope of reasoning

though even from this distance

I can see how my departure continues

to at her heart keep piercing