Controversy of the word GAY

Am I gay? Homosexually or Happily which one? Answer the question Help me see what you see I feel like i have a choice here A choice so strong others may have to see it for me Heres the story i feel as if the love for Him is like none other I feel excited in His presence because of the quickly filled joy i receive from Him like a shaken bottled soda ready to be opened I feel as if He is my Lord and i am a worker in His tower which i am a servant of and delighted to be I feel He is my shield in times of trouble i can hide and abide Am i in love with Him and in what He does for me? Can a man be in love with another man? I am? I am both gay and happy I would have never thought that love would be used to express how i feel about another man Never would i have said I'd be catching heart-felt desires with a dude and actually be happy to be a future bride to this groom Never would i give compliments to another man or show affection of any sort crying, kneeling, praising, worshipping, and all it's amazing imprisonment But i have heard concerning love anyone and everyone are servants to the word What kind of love is this, is that that this man i speak of would be killed See He sacrificed Himself for love, for me, for His bride Knowing that losing Himself for love will result to me finding myself from him, for love Like online dating i first seen pictures, read about Him, but i never seen him, physically before Am I in love with this man? Is that possible? Every feeling and never would have s has been the greatest feelings of happiness and joy i have ever experienced What type of man would have His fingers wrapped around me Well.....Well....Jesus the Christ the man, the groom, the person i have never seen, except for hypthetical drawings, movies, and frequent readings was, is, and always will be the best thing that ever happened and happen to me So AM I GAY? Please answer for me?