Could of been me

Lets take for instance, I write far from a distance. Got you near sided, Took all your breath Left you hanging with no excitement Now your face turning black Like the color of death your body layz to rest! Where goes your soul? For that answer has never been untold For everyone has an explanation, But think about it… No one really knows For all the lies that have been said And the truths that are untold What does it matter When your tears hit the ice and they break and they shatter What is this life we living? When people are taking and forsaking For everything that we’ve been giving? It’s like being in a roller coaster Strapped in the seat On the way up I am grittin my teeth While I’m strollin to the TOP I’m feelin the heat Cause I know I’m bout to drop everything that I keep. What’s the point I’m getting at? I don’t even know I just picked this pen up 60 seconds ago Waiting for something to happen as I write these words on this page Then I put my wings on and fly off like a bird What am I trying to say Cause my thoughts are just fading away! As I turn on the TV I see nothing but reality As these people living they lives And they faking their cries And they laughing with their evil demons inside I’m not understanding what this world is coming to Well…maybe I’m not suppose to know And just go with they flow But there is something inside telling me to figure it out I need to know and find out what it’s all about. I picked up my friend from the block a couple of months ago Now I’m high and faded a couple of blunts ago In between her breast there lies a tattoo Of a spider With eight legs that’s crawling on me from the vibe I feel from inside her. I start to get the sensation Luring through my fingers As she come towards me And our bodyz start to Lingure. She was making me hot As I felt the heat on my neck. It felt like the room was on fire! I looked in her eyes and saw her desire As she withered my neck and gave me a whisper I knew right then and there She wanted me to kiss her. I closed my eyes and held my breath. She told me to “RELAX” Now all that heat strolled from my neck down to my back Giving me this tingling sensation Using all five senses Without any imagination I know I was about to go on a joy ride of my life And this ticket was free But the thing was… I couldn’t really see! Then all of a sudden the remote fell to the floor It sounded like a knock on the bedroom door Then I looked up and stared at the TV. It was on channel 69 Before it hit the floor Now it is on channel 68. The discovery channel found me with a slithering snake! At the time I was high And I knew this feeling wasn’t right Cause when I closed my legs She wanted to fight Like the snake on TV That was tempting to strike Her eyes that tried to seduce me Just turned to evil Like I see in some of these people Everything that night Fell right into place As I was about to make my life’s worst mistake. It was like a sign from God From the heavens above That save me again As though I thought this gurl Was only but a friend It all came to an end When I put out her fire That was burning her desire SIX MONTHS LATER… I run into at the club She asked me to follow her to her car I was like okay… but she isn’t going to get me that far She was begging me please I knew she was serious When she fell to her knees Then she cried to me...she said, “YaYa, I'm positive with the HIV." I comforted her and assured her she will be ok. In the back of my mind I was like “DAMN the TV” If I didn’t look up This could of been me.