Count It All Joy

I can’t do this anymore… I’m only making you sad… I feel like we moved to fast… But we don’t have to lose ALL that we had. Why did he say that? Hadn’t we grown close? We did so much together More than I did with most Should I call to explain myself? Should I beg, should I plead? Can someone else help me? Just tell me…, do I get on my knees? Maybe if he sees me cry …yeah that’s what I’ll do He’ll feel really sorry It might make him feel like a fool. No! I won’t cry, Besides, it’s useless But the pain is excruciating I really have to get through this I’ll give him his space That’s what he asked It won’t take away the hurt But the friendship will last We’ll talk from time to time Maybe still hang out a bit That way he won’t feel pressured Like I’m forcing him to commit Oh well… enough of that Time to focus on me Tell me again…How do I pick myself up From all my misery Go ahead…I’m listening, I’ll open my mind so I can focus You say count it all joy Wait! I’m not understanding this Let me repeat what you’ve said So I can hear myself speak it Saying it out loud Could help me receive it Through all my trials and tribulations God is my comfort; God is my peace I should thank Him for this heartache He allowed it for me In my darkest hours full of hurt I could cry out for Him For He would come close when I called He would draw me near He would wrap His loving arms around me Then the stillness I could feel My tears would go away My heart would begin to heal Wow…I’m starting to understand It shouldn’t have to hit me like a ton of bricks The course of action I must take Is to just draw closer to Him Closer to Him everyday And not just in my pain But when things are going well He wants me near just the same Count it all joy…huh? I like how that sounds It’s time I acknowledge and say I must change the way I’m living Starting with today