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Why does everything happen to me?

Every little thing that happens it's always me

Why can't I do anything right?

Mind running in circles and nothing's ever in sight

Head spinning,body shaken,and looking like I'm frozen with fright

Instead of a bird ready to take flight

All of the voices in my head and out

Constantly making me question all that I'm about

Cried all I could cry,my eyes feel like a bad drough

Heart broken in so many places I can't explain why my mind shouts

Shouts for me to do right

Shouts for me to give it all my might

Yet it's not enough

I was raised by a strong woman so I was taught to stay tough

But sometimes life gets rough

Constantly making me want to pull the plug

There's only one person keeping me here

Just one person I hold so near

Just one person I hold so dear

Yet now he's breaking away

Breaking away if we not fighting everyday

Fight so hard I have to push the pain away

Knowing that I don't matter anymore

Done all I can now my heart is sore

I can't take much more

How you laugh and tease me even when I'm all the way out the door

Causing me to want to melt into a puddle on the floor

I get home and slam the door

I raise my sleeve and stare at my arm

Stare at the scars that litter my body

All because I deserve nobody

The blade feels cold against my fingertips

10 for all the pain I've been holding in,the pain inflicted on me again and again

9 for letting people take away something so precious,something so rightfully mine

8 for letting them make me weak,for being so agraid

7 I see a bright light. Am I in heaven?

6 I look back at my arm and the blood makes me sick

5 is this the end? Will I go someplace where I can grow and thrive?

4 can I live free? I can't live with pain no more

3 the light is getting closer,wonder who will miss me

2 I reach toward the light and then I go through

1 I'm done