Crack In My Shield

See, I wonder, if you loved me so, why did you do that?

If you thought I made you happy, why did you ruin that?

My heart still aches once in awhile, and this is one of those times.

I miss those conversations that made us laugh. I miss those funny faces, small kisses, and soft talks about love. 

I miss your hugs, and I miss my best friend. 

It's been 3 months and tears still come to my eyes when I write this. 

And I don't know if that makes me a lover of an idiot.

I almost let you back in too, but you let me down again.

I guess it's mind over matter so someone tell my heart to shut up.