In this Crazy World We Live

In this crazy world we live 

We see all kinds of people 

Some are very real 

They let the world see  

Who they truly are 

Then there are others 

Who seem not real 

They are fake 

They are fixed 

They changed themselves to be 

More like those whom they see on TV 

They want to be like  

A girl made of plastic 

One who doesn’t grow old 

Doesn’t change 

Doesn’t come out of the spotlight 

They want to be worthy 

Of likes online 

They don’t want to let people down 

Or show who they really are 

All they want is the glamour 

The fame 

The money 

So they can spend it all 

And repeat the cycle 

I even got caught up in this 

“How can you talk about this?” 

“Your so skinny” 

“You cannot be insecure” 

I am not supposed to be like this 

I am supposed to be confident 

But I didn’t like the way I looked 

I was insecure 

Not confident 

Not at all 

And scared of judging eyes 

I watched all of these girls 

Who are like models 

Instagram stars 

The perfect girl 

The ones whom all of us envy 

This made me watch myself 

Seeming to only see where I fell short 

Where I gained weight 

Where I wasn’t perfect 

I didn’t want to catfish the world 

I looked in the mirror and saw 

All the things that society says is wrong 

I saw where I fell short 

Even if not by much 

I saw a girl  

One who is only told 

That you are not good enough 

I look and think 

I may be being too harsh on myself but, 

Could the mirror possibly be lying 

Could it see things that I didn’t want to see? 

People definitely could though 

They would publicly point it out 

They were cruel about the things they saw in me 

But, this is the society we are in 

But is this the way we want the next generation to feel 

Do we want our children to go through 

This hellish mentality 

This way of thinking that 

We are not good enough 

I want to have children 

Not have to question  

Why they look a certain way 

Or justify why their body is changing  

Why do we feel the need to do this? 

The only way I can seem to explain this is 

Because of things I saw 

In the mall 

On television  

In the grocery store 

Where I saw  

Skinny celebrities 

Weight loss tricks 

And many fashion magazines  

They would show the young and impressionable 

The dark reality of this world 

They see what women are supposed to look like 

As well as what they look like without  

All of their glamorous makeup and clothing 

We are eager to see  

The imperfections of others 

The flaws they have 

The parts of them that make them seem 

More human, more relatable 

We look for these flaws in these celebrities 

But we are really looking for them in ourselves 

Subconsciously, for the most part 

We are also unknowingly trained  

To think that things such as cellulite 

Is bad and it is ok to make fun of 

To ridicule 

We are also taught to be insecure 

We are not born with insecurities 

Young children are not insecure about  

Their waist size 

Their complexion 

We are taught to see things that 

Do not conform to what has been taught 

We are conditioned to feel 

Ashamed 

Embarrassed 

Of the things that make us different 

The things that make everyone unique 

But the world is not going to just change 

Not tomorrow 

Not next week 

Not even next year 

And this is difficult 

Because there is no easy fix 

No way to completely get rid of all the ideals 

No shortcuts or hidden passageways 

We have to change  

Change the minds 

Change the ideas 

 Of many people 

To be able to get heads to turn and things to change 

We can do this by showing the world  

You with no filter  

No shame 

No fear 

This will cause many more 

Women and men alike 

To realize that they are strong 

That they have strength 

Because you are showing the most vulnerable parts of yourself 

This doesn’t mean 

You need to not be glamorous 

This just means that a healthy balance is key 

Sometimes this balance is hard to keep when 

People point out flaws you had never thought to notice 

This just shows that I’m human 

That I don’t know how to be and feel invincible 

But some things can help 

One: Purge yourself of those that make you feel like  

You are not beautiful on a daily basis 

This be a huge impact on how you see yourself in the mirror 

And how much confidence you truly have 

Two: Live a healthier lifestyle 

This focus on making you feel better inside 

Will help you feel better on the outside 

Three: Remind yourself that the world is seen through filters of perfection 

That the world you see on the internet is the best parts of people’s lives 

Don’t set the impossible goal of meeting the fake standards 

We are all imperfectly beautiful 

Even when you feel not so sure 

There is a network 

A whole world 

Right behind you 

Ready to support you  

To catch you if you fall 

Embrace your natural beauty 

Celebrate others and how beautiful you are 

Just don’t forget that we are 

Unique 

Imperfect 

And Powerful 

In this crazy world we live