Cross My Sorry Heart

My heart explodes

With your warm smile

That which lightens your face

The same way the sun lightens the earth

Such blinding glory

Which I can never seem to get enough

And I smile back

Forming creases on the heavy layers of makeup

That cover that purple bruise on my left cheek

It hurts, you know?

But I guess that it doesn’t hurt

As much as how I hurt you

With my faults and flaws

They annoy you

I annoy you—I know

But I love you and I know you love me too

But the dark shadows in your eyes frighten me

Yet your smile enthralls me

I’m so in love with you that I might go crazy

This pain you cause

It’s okay

Because I love you more than I love life

More than I love coffee and the chirps of the birds in the morning

The dark tunnel will end up with a bright, gaping exit

And you’ll be there waiting for me

Because, just as much as I love you

You love me too

I know it’s not good

But darling

For you I’d run to hell

And conquer the seven realms of that hideous place

All for you

Though instead of your calloused knuckles on my cheek

I’d prefer your gentle fingers over my thigh

On my lips

And instead of that volcanic anger

Sweet tenderness

I’d wish for you to talk to me

Tell me your ailing, love

And I would try to paint you a bright sky

Because this is what love means to me

Wrecking myself

For your perfection

Your wellbeing

Your affection focused on my face

I hope you hear my words

I’d do anything for you

Even if you might not

But let me say it one more time

All of this

Is because I love you