Crushed

Love thy self they say

My self respect was crushed long ago

Crushed by a father

Who never missed a moment

A moment to call me fat

Or to ask why I needed seconds

He'd bark about me not being skinny

Even with all the work I've done

I look in the mirror and see a fatass

Who doesn't have a flat stomach

Who doesn't fit in a size zero

My eyes are masked

From years of dark words

All I see is a girl crushed.

I see a girl no matter how hard she tries

She won't be daddy's "little" girl

In the mirror stands a broken mistreated and abused girl

Who cant even see her real self

Who will be fat even when her ribs show

Thanks dad for that ingrained image of who I never have been

But always will be