Cycle of an Eating disorder

Count. Count every calorie. Count every step. Count down the minutes until your alone. Count the pounds you lost. Hate. Hate yourself for eating. Hate the food. Hate the way you look. Hate everything in your way. Dispose. Dispose of the solid hate you just ate. Dispose of the friends who start to notice. Dispose of the evidence. Dispose of yourself. Notice. Notice you have a problem. Notice you need help. Notice you have support. Notice you are beautiful.