Daddy,Over the Years

Daddy, over the years

we have been through so many breaking points, 

yet so many mending points.

When I was 5, I saw you as my whole world,

no one could hurt me when I had you.

Everything was sweet.

At 10, I started to see what the poison did to you. 

Your beloved baby girl was now the victim of your crushing words.

You would blow up one night about my grades. 

I was so young and confused until, one moment, you were so close that I felt your breath on my eyelashes.

That was the first time I saw my world crumble, all from a liquid in a glass bottle.

 The morning after you held me tight and I felt you radiate regret.

That was enough for me to feel like I had you back.

At 14, I came out to you through text.

You came home and your anger increased with every word you said to me. 

At this age I've seen you react like this several times, but

that day I wasn't just hurt by your words;

your hands decided to join the fun also.. and stress was your excuse.

I never thought that I could be so far from you, we couldn't even meet eyes.

This horrid altercation took months for us to grow from. 

Now I'm 16.

The past year has allowed us to come back to the way we were before 

the alcohol, excuses, and cowardness.

At my party there was a special dance for just us.

We swayed and cried together.

My sobs were my way of showing how proud I am of our relationship.

When you held me I felt the way I did when I was 5,

my world was mended.