Damage everywhere I turn

Can I bring good into the world? Or can I only bring pain? Can I do good? I swear I only cause others pain no matter what I do I damage the ones I love And cause a catastrophic disaster at every home I end up in Is their no hope for me? Is their only dark despair? I cause pain to those I get close to I was kicked out at 19 for the pain I caused my family Before that my family died I can't help but think did I cause that to happen too? Can I only do damage? I live in a dark hole of space Maybe that's where I need to be So no one can be hurt anymore Everyone tells me no it's not your fault But what if I am a virus Meant to kill the joy of everyone I come in contact with Maybe it's because of the life I have lived But there is damage everywhere I turn And I caused it I wrecked havoc Then I destroyed the only love left in the hearts of the souls who loved me I burn down bridges that were built by others without trying Am I a deadly disease that has come out after many years? A disease that was hiding and hibernating waiting for the right moment to emerge? Will I be the fire that burns those that get close to save the souls trapped within the burning building? I see that I cause damage and fear everywhere I turn Those that risk their lives for me always lose something in return They lose freedom They lose a happy life I always damage them I always take it away Like the eviction people come to take the home Is this what my life is supposed to be? I am now with yet another kind group of souls They took me when I had no place else to go Will I destroy their lives too? Will I be the death of their happiness like that of the ones before them? Will their happiness wilt like a red rose shriveling up and turning black? What did they lose in place of coming to get me? I won't know.. All I know is.. I am only capable of causing disasters It's only a matter of time before it happens again