A dark place

Sitting in the dark starring in to the abyss. Is anyone thinking of me am i even missed. My life changed quickly suddenly and fast. I see im becoming someone different ..different from my past. Friends i thought were friends are acquaintances maybe less. I feel as if God is putting me to the test. A test of loneliness, of loss, of betrayal, and of strength. I feel every body angry and the whole world has turned against. The friends i used to have no longer give a call. To see if im ok or did i stumble did i fall. I feel as if the walls are slowly Closing, caving in. Hard to tell who real or who is  pretending to be my friend. Im tired of being nice guy im tired of being used. I see there is two paths ahead of me two roads that i can choose. My world is slowly disappearing .. Crumbling.. Falling all apart.. I used to see love and happiness pounding inside my beating heart. Now there is a slight breeze passing through the hole inside my chest. I try to close my eyes to lay down i try and get some rest. Im tossing and turning i cant seem to get no sleep. Im trying to get out of this abyss but this abyss is very deep. Im screaming im yelling but there is no one to hear me. So now im sitting in the dark and starring at the abyss. Is there anyone thinking about me am i even missed.