The Darkness Inside Me

There is a darkness inside me.

A weight with a chain.

It is always there. 

Even when I pretend to smile,

Even when I pretend to laugh.

There is a darkness inside me.

It continually tries to crush me.

It pulls me down.

It drowns out the light inside.

Now I can't see who I am.

There is a darkness inside me.

It makes me think thoughts.

Hurtful and angry thoughts.

But the thoughts aren't my own.

And they plauge my mind.

There is a darkness inside me.

It makes me immobile.

It makes me sad.

It makes me angry,

And I don't know why.

There is a darkness inside me.

I do not want it to win.

I cannot let it win.

I fight every moment to keep it at bay,

But I am getting tired.

There is a darkness inside me.

I fight it every day.

It is not me,

But it is always there.