Day Today
Day Today
Memories, no matter what I do,
How much I try
How many times I’ve cried
Or the countless times I’ve said bye
It’s these memories that I can’t seem to live through.
They cloud my judgments, and deprive me from life
They serve as reminders of that time
When I was petrified to blink an eye
I would try to preoccupy myself
To turn a blind eye
But all I did was mollify him
As I sat there defenseless and terrified
How many times have I asked, was it I?
Was I too sly?
How many times have I asked, why I mummified my feelings?
Why didn’t I squeak, resist, cry, or scream?
Why did I remain silent and tongue-tied?
When all I felt was despair and misery
When asked what had happened,
I chose to disqualify
You see I wanted to justify his actions
Didn’t want to break my family
So I chose to lie
In order to unify my family
To nullify my fears and preoccupy myself
I smiled despite the pain
Talked when all I wanted was to scream
Walked when I wished to fled
Lived when I wished to disappear
Memories, no matter what I do
How much I lie
How many times I’ve fortified
Or the countless times I’ve tried to modified
It’s these memories that I can’t seem to live without
So instead I choose to live day today
To focus on each breath I take
To remind myself that I have the power to take control of my destiny
I wont be a victim anymore,
Maybe, just maybe it’s these memories that will feed me the strength for empowerment