Dead or Alive

Someone tell me why

If I’m just living to fight, why am I fighting to live

Why am I tearing up for someone who wasn’t in my life

When there is nothing in sight, why am I trying to see

Why am I feeling bad for someone who didn't know how to treat people right

When no one gives me a try, why am I trying to give 

Why am I sad about someone who always had to get in a fight

If I'm just living to die, why am I dying to live 

But this time I asked why

Why it was him and not another guy

In the wrong place, at the wrong time 

Someone tell me why

He wasn't there when I needing him 

He wasn't there when he cried

It wasn't him singing me lullabies at night

All those nights I would curse and pray, but I never wished for him to die

All those nights I'd wait to meet him,  now I see him but not alive

Even if he can’t see me, I’m going to try a thrive 

And be a better person than he was was 

Dead or alive