Dear, 15

As I fall into a hole of emptiness and despair,

I keep reaching for something that is no longer there

Suffocating from the guilt and regret that I caused myself,

I landed on a flat surface where in the hours of darkness I found myself dancing with the devil.

What I once thought was dead, still remained alive 

A word without meaning is like a person without a soul 

People are people and some people you must let go

My love for you still expands 

Every single part of me was in your hands 

I could not bare to see you go when you were the focus of my plans 

please do not desert me you are what I need most 

You were the cause of an unforgettable pain 

but the beauty of my love and the hope that merges continue to cross lanes

I keep trying to figure out where we lost connection 

but eventually I began to live a life as if you had never existed.

Now our past is completely dead 

and our future is nothing but a dream 

everything you are,

and everything I am, is not what it seems 

I know I am not the path you want now 

who knows if I will ever be 

You were something I could never understand 

Something I could never see

Even though the moments we shared have faded into nothing 

I always believed our nothing was still something 

It is unbelievable how far I’ve come 

but it’s even more unbelievable how till this day it stung

this path I have taken seems to have no end 

So here is the end in the letter I send.

Love, Sabrina