Dear 2017

Dear 2017,

So, I've come to this, my Senior year

Ten years ago, I thought of this great time with no fear

Even twelve months before the fateful day

I thought my perfect life will always be that way

Future swim Captain, got a job the day you were born

Great family, no drama, straight A's I swore

That you'd be the best year of my life

"It could never be bad" my father told to his wife

Oh wow, I kid you not, you've been my worst mistake

If I had the power, I'd skip you- whatever it'd take

How one's life could flip so easily upside down

Instead of 'living the life' I have felt like I will drown

Yeah, there's still Christmas, and my family is with me

But you've taken all joy from my life that I can see

"What have I done?!" is what you'll probably scream

Well, let me tell you what hell you've been, 2017

It all started on January 10th 

When you took my neighbor/grandpa, and my mental strength

You see I've never have had to deal with a close, painful death

It didn't really help that we don't know when he took his last breath

Then my great grandma, yes one-hundred and seven

Died two days later, wow that's nice, hope she's in Heaven

I cried for days, and wept out loud

But then my friends got annoyed, so I didn't make a sound

How do you expect a lonely sixteen year old

To deal with two deaths, so disruptive and bold

It was fine for a while, at least I still had my grades

But then you know what depression does, food helped the pain

So I ate more than I should, and even though I swam

I couldn't get the mentality to not want to eat a whole ham

Yeah that's funny, and you left me at peace 

Until my very last day of being a Junior, and you took everything with a breeze

Literally.  A breeze.  'Cause I was literally walking

When I fell to the floor as I just sat there crying

I sprained my ankle, at the beginning of the summer

And for a dedicated swimmer, that's a major bummer

I had so many hopes, and goals and plans

I was going to go to State with my teammates again.

But with an injury like that, I had to kiss those dreams goodbye

For four weeks straight, I could only sit, watch others, and sigh

I wept for myself, what did you expect me to do!?

You took two loved ones away, and gave me a swollen ankle that couldn't fit in a shoe!!

When I could swim again, I tried so hard to get back

To where I used to be, like last year, but I did lack

All my leg work, everything I worked hard for

Gone in a second, a second in you, I blamed you for

All that had happened, I was so scared for High School Season

That when I hurt my shoulder, I had a lot of reasons

To quit, just like that,  you ruined my last chance

To go to State, to make my parents proud, "I can't"

I kept saying those words, my life turned to hell

Horrible friends, no success, everyone could tell

I wasn't the same, even with a fake smile

Because even after that, you had more turmoil

My grandmother sweet, had Alzheimer disease

I say had, because during the season, she became deceased

How could I try, when there was nothing to try for

Or so did I thought, because my Father touched the core

The core of you, "the year of my life"

So much sadness and pain, I had to force myself to strive

To see the small good that you have given me

And after getting accepted to Auburn, my dream school, I could finally see

There were things to live for, after all that I've been through

Even after a depression scare, some good came into view

I made so many memories with the people I love

And looking to the future, happiness made a shove

Through the darkness you gave to me and my family

I strive for greatness for this last month happily

You've taken so much from me and now hear

My thoughts of great joy for the better next year

You soon will be no more, and how great it will be

To cheer "HAPPY NEW YEAR" from my loved ones and me

With all of my sorrow, and tears and despair

I bury you, 2017, with no ounce of great care

I am better because of you, well not you, but of your acts

Like concrete of evil, my hope slipped through the cracks

I do not want a reply, if you do it will morn

In that low life called past, you will live in forevermore

I bid you farewell, from my future and I

2017, it's been real, but it's time for goodbye

And as I end this letter to you

My sincere apologies to your failed attempt of an evil breakthrough

Goodbye forever, you pathetic thing,

-The new, and improved, 2018 (Me)