Dear Anxiety

Dear Anxiety, 

How does it feel inside of my mind? 

Where you like to torture me all of the time. 

Making me believe things that aren’t true. 

Like when you said “they’ll all laugh at you”.

I’m sure you feel safe, sound, and secure.

You know, all those things you steal from me and more. 

Do you remember the night we first met?

I hid in my room all night and just wept.

I was a child but you didn’t care,

You were just fine leading me to despair. 

Telling me I’ll never be enough, 

don’t even try, just give it up. 

Or how about that time you stole all of my friends? 

As you whispered to me days without end. 

Did you feel proud and have no shame at all

To leave me alone with no one to call?

Are you really that jealous, so insecure?

That you must follow me closely through every door.

I’m forced to carry you around like a ball and chain, 

Your weight weighing heavy on both sides of my brain.

And on those days when I can’t leave my house?

I bet you sit back and just laugh to yourself.

But I won’t let you win, I’ll no longer succumb

To your lies and your hate and your devious tongue. 

I have someone new who tells me the truth. 

His words fall like rain, like they’re made to soothe.

Washing away the pain you bring day to day.

I’ll no longer be a helpless slave to your evil way.

I know your game now, how you are a monster. 

And I find relief in the love from my Savior.

                                                                          - Tammy M