Dear Birth Giver

Dear Birth Giver,

I love you with all my heart. 

Sometimes I wonder why you did the things you did..

Was it out of love, hate or were you unaware of your actions?

If you could do things over again would you so I could be with you more ?

I know this may hurt you but I don't look to you as a role model.

You have no idea how it feel to cry every night because you want your mom. 

On the other hand you feel like no one else undrstands you but she's not even there by your side.

I have all these balled up feelings towards you in my heart.

I used to go counseling but that never help due to me always being defensive when it came to you.

However I'm done.

I'm not going to say I wish I had another mother whereas I'm glad you gave birth to me.

So I could go into the world and become a beautiful young lady and make something out of myself.

So at that moment you would be able to say there goes my baby.....

Sinecerly, 

                  Your youngest baby.