Dear Dad , Its time I get some things off my chest.

Dear Dad , How are yo- Oops my bad , I forgot I dont have the privledge of calling you that anymore. Let me start again. Dear Be*****n , It's been 2 years since we last talked , and although you told me that you didn't want anything to do with me anymore , I decided to write this letter to you so I can give my own self some closure and so I can finally get somethings off my chest that I've been carrying around for so long. First off , how do you go from concidering me a daughter one day and the next day want nothing to do with me? Some people tell me that I should just let go and move on with my life since you arent my biological father but it isnt as easy as it seems. Especially since I have anxiety and it causes me to rethink things over and over again. Ever since I can remember , I always knew you werent my biological Dad. I remember being so jealous when I would see Dads picking up there daughters from school and asking them about what they did in class and if they made any friends. I remember how affectionate those Dads were to there daughters meanwhile the only type of affection you would give me were when you would hit me for the smallest reasons. Ahh memories , am I right. I really did enjoy those times you hit me. [ note the sarcasm.] You remember that time you came to my pre school graduation or the time that you went to my school to see that dance performance I had? You dont remember? Oh thats right , thats because you werent there. When you met my mom , she had already had me and I was about 4 months old. My mom told me that you guys instantly fell inlove and that you promised to raise me as your own daughter and forever love me like your own. You also promised that I would never know that you werent my biological father because in your eyes I was always going to be your daughter and you didnt want me to look at you diffrently if I ever found out the truth. I remember when I was a little girl , I would look up to you so much! To me you were better than superman or any other super hero! Words couldnt explain how much I loved you! You then went to prison for 5 years when I was 11. I remember counting down the days till you were finally out and I could finally have my dad back! You promised you would be there for me when you came out. I eventually found out the truth that you werent my biological father when you were in prison and I was about 15 years old. You told me that nomatter what , I was your little princess and that to you , I was always going to be your daughter. You told me that you didnt want me to look at you diffrently just because I knew the truth now and I didnt. Not once did I ever look at you diffrently nor did I love you any less just because I knew the truth. No. I still loved you the same . Nothing had changed. Then you got out. You found yourself a girlfriend who already had a 5 year old daughter and you started distancing yourself from me and my sisters , who happen to be your biological daughters. Your girlfriend was putting things in your head so you stopped talking to us. My sisters got mad and confronted you and told you how they didnt like your girlfriend because of how she was changing you. Then you cussed them out and told them you didnt want anything to do with them untill they respected your girlfriend. At this point I was angry so I spoke up and told you that what you were doing wasnt right and you told me to mind my own bussines because you werent even my father anyways and I wasnt your daughter so it shouldnt concern me. I'll admit that when you said that , it hurt me but what hurt me more was when you said and I quote "I only ever stuck around and raised you as my own because I felt bad that nobody wanted you. You were basically a charity case to me if im being completly honest with you. Go look for your real dad if you even know who he is , and leave me alone already. I dont care about you or what you have going on or are going thru." End quote. Now that broke me. It shattered my heart into millions of pieces. Now just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. I didnt do anything for you to break me the way you did. Did you know that I started looking for love in all the wrong places because of you? Did you know that at a point I was heavily addicted to drugs because I badly wanted to forget those words you told me but nothing ever seemed to make me forget what you told me. I almost overdosed twice because of how your words hurt me. Your now a happy family with your girlfriend and her daughter and your kid you guys just had meanwhile im far too damaged and broken because of you. You laugh , smile , play , and your happy , meanwhile im emotionally numb now because I somehow turned off my emotions and feelings , so that I would stop feeling the way I did. My Mom tells me I should talk to someone and hopefully that will help me. I really hope it does help me. I hope it helps me forgive you. I hope it helps me forget you. And I hope it helps me move on. I know you dont care and you think im waisting your time , but I just needed to get somethings off my chest. So without wasting anymore of your time [ if you even finished reading this letter] I will let you go. Sincerly , - The girl you only ever seen as a charity case and raised out of pity. P.S Don't think that I would ever forgive you , because I wont.