Dear Daddy

Dear daddy your little girl isn't doing too good

I let the world change me.

Daddy I should've listened.

I let the world impact my happiness.

I let the bruises from your hands impact more than my skin.

What have I done?

Daddy I miss you so much

I'm so sorry I fell so hard without you

I thought I could make it.

I thought I could pretend.

Those long nights of screaming.

Those long nights of fighting.

Those long nights of beating.

I thought I could pretend they didn't happen.

I slipped too many times.

Daddy I don't want to go on

I thought you were my hardest trial.

I was so wrong.

Daddy I can't do this alone.

Forever wishing I could give up

But Daddy I know that would kill you

And the only thing worse than killing me is killing you.

Now I have grown up.

I have found what I love in this world

And I did it without you.

Reality hit me harder than you ever did.

The bruises on my skin are only physcial representations

Of the ones on my heart and mind.

I can still conquer mountains and cross oceans.

I do not need another person to determine my happiness

I am a daddy's girl without a daddy.

Daddy, you broke me.

But Daddy, I fixed me.